Which Choice Do I Make?
By Janet Stobie
This spring I turned seventy. I look around at my friends who have happy lives. They’re enjoying their homes, their families, their church. They have gardens and volunteer work. Their lives look good to me right now. I too have a life much like theirs, but with something added. I write – this newspaper column, short stories and books. At the moment, my supply of my latest book “Fireweed” is dwindling. It’s time to order another batch of 500. My website needs updating. It’s time to book speaking engagements for the fall and winter. I am poised between truly retiring and continuing my ministry.
I discussed my choices with Tom. I wondered if those greener pastures in which my friends live are what I want and need. I heard his encouragement for carrying on. He spoke of his willingness to continue being the supportive mate and his enjoyment of “our” ministry. I spent time in prayer. I wrote my daily letter to God with the pros and cons and the question, “God, what do you need of me?” I wrote some more and slowly the words came into my mind, “Use your gifts. That’s why I gave them to you. Enjoy, you’re not quite finished yet.”
I picked up a book, And Not One Bird Stopped Singing, by D. M. Jones, and read the words, “You cannot choose how you’re going to die, but you can choose how you’re going to live.” I thought, already, I’m the first customer in Greg and Andrew’s new website marketing business www.4hundred4.ca . OK, God, I hear you. Maybe next year or in ten years, maybe then I’ll slow down, actually retire. This is my choice, a good choice for me. Like many seniors, who keep on into their eighties and nineties, I choose to live to my fullest ability, to accept the joy of spreading God’s message. I choose to fly on God’s Spirit, to trust in God.
That’s how I make decisions. Try it.
This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live.” (Deuteronomy 30:19)